im in college and going through treatment is very hard especially on the social life. i can never go out because im so sick but would like too. i wish my friends would stay in with me once and awhile but dont want them to be brought down in my depression. i get emotional when they are getting all dressed up to go out and want to take pictures and they ask me to take the photos. they asked me to be in the photos but i feel so ugly with bald spots and all the uglyness of treatment. i just hate feeling left out and want my life. i just want to be normal!