Months later, I'm back but I'm also at the LOWEST point in my entire life. I'm done with treatment! I'm cancer free but I'm also now part of 'Club Panic' and let me tell you, didn't think i'd be here My mom has fallen very ill, she's very unstable on her feet so I've had to take over the entire househould, and i mean make the food, do the dishes, pay the bills, etc. My father has fallen into his own world, and I understand that's how he handles things, playing music is okay but not when it consumes your entire life. Now my stomach hurts so much and blood in my urine, but my parents have kinda of just ignored it and the doctor is still investigating things about it.
My friends...honest to god I have no more. Days go on and no messages or updates from people in my life. EVERYONE has left me. EVERY one, they don't want to associate with me anymore and I've tried ONE to many times to keep the conversations going. In public I scare people they can't even get the effin words out of their mouth. Yeah I admit I probably look different.