I'm having many mixed emotions and feeling down. I feel like I can't let my family know how I feel because I don't want to worry them. I started chemo (taxol) on 1/25/13 and am receiving it weekly. Side effects are not to bad other then mouth sores, body aches and fatigue. I have stage 2 and was recommended by my doc to receive chemo first to shrink the lump and then try lumpectomy or remove the breast. I feel a little exhausted by the thought that I should just have removed the breast so that I don't have to constantly feel like the chemo is not working, or I feel like I have new lumps. I'm worried about the rest of my treatment and how it all is going to work out.