hi my name is julie, i'm 29 yrs old and my BF was diagnosed with a bone marrow cancer called Multiple Myeloma. He is 32 yrs old and is fighting for his life. he was diagnosed about two years ago now, it's been a rough two years to say the least. i've always prided myself on being a strong woman, but lately i have been feeling less than stellar. my bf has been doing chemo and had a bone marrow transplant, with everything going on i've kind of lost sight of my own health. i am feeling so emotional and out of control so i've decided to take time off of work and focus on me and be able to help him without hurting myself. i've been feeling really guilty about taking time off work and depending on others to support us. I have never gone through anything like this before, I am always so worried we are making the right decisions. cancer is so hard to navigate through, i so many doubts and fears. I know i'm not the only one who feels this way, but i'm the only one I know who feels this way. i'm hoping maybe putting my thoughts out there and reading other people's stories will help me not feel so alone. cancer sucks, stupid cancer!!!!!!