It seems as if everything is becoming too much. Between my mom fussing at me to keep fighting, and my little brother always giving me something in hopes my 'owie' goes away, my doctors sticking me with more needles than I probably have in my lifetime, and teachers or tutors bothering me about what pi times fourty over the cosine of six is. I'm getting overwhelmed with everything, and I really feel as if it's all hitting me so fast. I am feeling worse and worse as time goes bye, and I want to give up on it all; but I can't talk to my mom as she's already on end, and I can't talk to doctors or the pediatric counselor here because she's gonna tell the doctors and amp up on more medicine to make me sedated and confused as to why I'm in the hospital like last week.This is all working on me, and I feel I'm at my 'boiling point' as my mother puts it when I do something stupid. I just want to go outside, play soccer like I used to when in remission, go to amusement parks, and just have fun. I want to be a kid again, and not locked in a hospital room hooked to breathing machines, and to machines to deliver my medicine and all these other machines. I just really want to live life, and if it means in the process I... go. Then let it be. I am a kid only once, and people go every day. From being sick and just straight up accidents in cars or fires. It's normal and the life and death cycle happens. I just want to go and be my age, and not worry about anything. No worries, no issues, nothing. And it seems as if I can't do that because everyone is so concerned about my well being, even though it hurts me. I can't take this anymore... how does everyone else deal with this? The feeling of everything being too much to handle? The wanting to live a life like other people? I really need help.