Ive been dating this guy for about 8 months, but seriously and exclusively for only about 4. I'm 26 and he's 30. I got my diagnosis only 2 weeks ago after having surgery. Since then I've had another surgery and been to about 100 doctors. I'm getting ready to start radiation, have a third surgery, and maybe start chemo.
He's been really great through everything, he loves me, he's super supportive, staying in with me during recovery, goes to doctors appts, etc. But I am finding myself overwhelmed with guilt that he has to deal with me.
I keep thinking he's going to wish he could break up with me but feel guilty because of the cancer, or wish he had never gotten involved with me, or feel too much pressure. So then my mind starts thinking I should break up with him to "let him go", so he isn't burdened by me.
We were talking at dinner last night and he said he didn't really know what to do because school starts today and he won't be able to be with me nearly as much. I told him it was fine, which it is. But he made a comment that this was all really "heavy", and if he feels this way he can't imagine how I feel. I feel so guilty.