So brain surgery #3, shit just got real. We knew it was coming sort of. Ben started having seizures about two weeks after he stopped chemo. Maybe that was working? So they said his MRI was clear at the time. Two weeks laters seizures got worse, they upped one of his meds. Two weeks went by then bam they started again and more often. MRI upped, labs checked they were okay BUT the MRI was not. Last week we found out Ben's brain cancer has spread. alot. Unfortunately they referred us to the neurosurgeon. From the previous 2 surgeries. Okay people talk about having multiple surgeries to watch someone endure that not okay. Ben swore he'd never had another one again. He went in today fearing surgery and fearing they couldn't do anything. He came in and told us the MRI looked bad. We knew it has grown. And looks like bubbles very strange and in this world not good cuz of the way it is. He will get out what he can. And chemo will follow more than likely after they know what they are dealing with. Ah we have to tell our 11 yr old daughter and family still. Ben's 35 he's gotten 3 years. More than we know how lucky we are. ... well he worked for it a lot. He's been through hell and back. I am worried this time more than the others that he won't come out of it as smoothly. He said that infection is a big concern and he might lose some eye sight. sucks...life is kicking us in the balls right now. I have to somehow keep it all together for everyone and take care of everything on top of it all. I need a nap! Anyways I find myself coming to this site where people get it. Thank You!