Just to give a little background, I was diagnosed with ovarian cancer almost two years ago. Since then I've been through half a dozen surgeries and even more chemo treatments. I have been told a few times that I had not long to live but I keep surprising my doctors and persevering. Also during this time I went through the destruction of a relationship that started just a month before my diagnosis. The relationship ended up becoming serious very quickly because he offered so much emotional support. Unfortunately at some point I realized that there were a lot of gaps in our relationship and I couldn't keep him from living his life when I wasn't giving him my whole heart. The good thing is that I have an amazing family and friends who have been extremely supportive and helpful. After my break up I moved in with my parents which isn't actually that bad because I am so close to my family. In addition to my family, I have an amazing local hospital who's staff is like family. I know that I am so lucky to have the support that I have but even in a sea of loved ones I find myself feeling isolated. It's not because I broke up with my boyfriend. Honestly I felt more lonely when I was with him. I just feel like there is no one in my life who understands what I'm going through. A huge part of my problem is that I hate bringing anyone else down with my problems. So when my friends and family tell me they are there for me, it kills me to complain or tell them about my problems because I don't want them to worry about me all the time. I'm not trying to be a Marty or whatever, I just genuinely don't want to upset others by complaining and I don't want people to feel sorry for me all the time. I tried to use Tinder the other day and lasted about a day before I realized that I couldn't be honest without having dudes feel sorry for me. I feel like making new friends is impossible, let alone trying to date.