Just got back from a bunch of tests after being anxious about cancer relapse/health complications. All tests were normal and once a again, the problem is in my head. I am thankful for the good results of course, but wondering how to keep a normal life going with the doom of cancer looming over my head all the time. No one seems to understand, my family and close friends get mad at me for going to the doctor, no doctor wants to see me and keeps saying, "you're fine, go and enjoy life". I do for the most part, but then it keeps coming back to worry and anxiety. I feel guilty even writing this bc I know how sick I was and how bad cancer was, but why must life after cancer be so hard as well. It isn't as easy as go enjoy life. Anybody else out there like me or am I really stupid for not knowing how to deal with this? I've tried everything, therapy, meditation, food, exercise, and sometimes it works, but then I try too hard and run myself down, which leads to more feelings about being tired and it must be cancer again. I just want to go hide in a CatScan machine and be told I am OK.