It's been about 7 years since my surgery to remove my brain tumor & life is still so rough sometimes. I know I'm better off without it & totally lucky to still be alive & doing so well but somedays I just wanna break down & cry because of all of the frustration.
The surgery has left me still a little slow with daily things like reading, walking, & just functioning. Along with that, I've been stuck with Benign Paroxysmal Positional Vertigo (BPPV). I've had past employers, family, & friends get on me about being slow or losing track of what's going on but I can't help it, I really try. Somedays it's scary thinking just one wrong move & I can either konk myself out or go into a violent vertigo spell.
When us friends go out to the fair or just hanging out I feel so different, so wrong, & uncomfortable. I can't do those things I used to & I'm left sitting on the sidelines wishing I could be normal too. I really do miss playing sports like crazy. I always try to stay positive but lately it's been really bothering me with so much going on.
Anyone else ever have similiar feelings? Trying to figure how to deal. If I should see docs or whatever, I don't know.