I haven't had a day this soundly bad in a long time. Thankfully none of it happens to have anything to do with cancer - well not directly at least.
Starting with thesis work. Without going into all the gory boring details, I have been working on a particular part since January and keep finsing problems. I found another today and it may mean another redo. Ugh, I am almost ready to toss in the towel. Halfway throught the summer and not much progress.
I started playing in a recreational soccer league this year. I wanted to play last year but was not ready. I built myself up to 5k run distance in the fall so I was ready this time. It was tough to get on a team but I managed just days before the first game. I didn't know anyone on the team of course and they had no idea about me.
4 games into the season and I am fed up with one guy in particular who has decided we need a coach to instruct us. He seems to have a particular issue with me. My ball skills are not as good as they once were, which is understandable given my circumstances, but my fitness isn't bad and my tactical understanding of the game has not changed. The guy has been challenging my tactics all season, but especially today telling me to do things you would tell 10 year olds about positions. I am sorry, but I am 30 and have been involved in soccer as a player, licensed referee, or a coach (sometimes more than one at a time) since I was 5. When my team is attacking, my job is to exploit open space to be open for a pass. As a defender, I hold back in support and rarely move into a direct attacking position, but I am still needed to distribute the ball, act as a release when the attackers are pressured, and be there to challenge loose balls. Any player is useless if they are actually marking their opponent when their team has posession of the ball. They are making the other team's job too easy, and that is precisely what that other guy was doing.
I told him once that I will find open space when our team has the ball and I will defend when the other team has the ball but he continued to yell stupid commands at me. I started ignoring him after that. Let's not forget that I assisted on our first goal by doing exactly the opposite of what he said (and he continued with the bad advice). Let's not forget that I shut down the other team's forward when I was on the field. I had more touches on the ball than she did. And still he benched me for the second half...and she proceeded to score goals and help her team to win. Good job..."coach"
I am getting sick of the guy. I hear a rumor that he will soon be too busy to participate and I will give this team a chance. If things do not improve, I will do my best to change teams and if not I just won't play. If I really wanted to make a point I guess I could still suit up for a game and help the other teams win. Bit it wouldn't be long before I was benched anyway.
The league is also ridiculous. You cannot call for the ball or you will earn yourself a card. Not just for trying tO deceive the other team but even when trying to communicate with your own teammates when you have a better play on the ball. Players get fined if the earn a red card(even through accumulAting yellow cards) which does nothing but encourage them to quit in such a situation. I am beginning to think this is a very poorly run league.
To top my day off I got yelled at by my wife for spilling water...on a tile floor.