I think Monday was the second worst day of my life, the first being that day I was told I have leukemia. It seems the AML has started to relapse and that is why my counts have been off lately. I am getting admitted to the hospital on Sunday to start chemo and they are going to be giving me some more T-cells from my doner in hopes of getting rid of the cancer. I am so f******* upset, I feel like since transplant I have done everything possible to stay healthy, I eat right, don't smoke or drink and take care to always take my meds and keep appointments. I always knew that relapse was a posibility but had somehow put it out of my mind. Has anyone had a similar experience? I just can't get over the intense saddness and anger that I am feeling. I try to be positive as much as possible but having a good attitude just got a lot harder.