Alright... so on top of an extremely stressful day at work (I work with teens with special needs..) I've been having some issues keeping my endocrine levels stable even when my medication hasn't changed so we're looking into other reasons why my body is still freaking out post-thyroid cancer. Also, I'm going to other doctors to better my quality of life like a nutritionist and medical trainer because I seriously need to lose all this weight I gained. So anyways I met with this new nutritionist today and right after I told her my story.. that I had thyroid cancer.. my body sucks... etc. etc. ... I need to lose this weight.. she gave me the most pitiful face and began to say "omgosh it must have been so hard to deal with cancer at 22 let alone all your other struggles at that age.. was it really difficult??" Now she was probably just trying to be nice, but seriously lady??? You asking me that question is a sure fire way to make me start to tear up, not want to listen to you, and choose a different doctor. So anyways I THOUGHT I would be able to shut her up with just a yea it's really hard and we could move on to why I was in her office. BUT NOOOOO she continued to probe me until I was full on crying my eyes out and wanting to just run out of the room. I learned nothing about nutrition and what she did tell me made absolutely no sense and she didn't answer any of my questions clearly.
I guess my point is.. I love how we're supposed to be so strong, and a role model, and whatever, but when you tell someone for the first time that you've had cancer you don't get looked at in that way. You don't get a smile of admiration or of pride.. Nope. You're seen as a weak person, someone to be pitied. I'm so sick of it. How am I supposed to be proud and positive of the cancer journey I've been on when everyone else sees it so negatively?? SO over it.