I'm curious to know how my fellow cancer patients feel about this topic.
Before I was diagnosed, I was not a religious person. My position is that I don't believe in god, and I'm quite sure that if one exists that this god or gods do not bother intervening in the personal lives of human beings. I always hear people tell me that, because I have received lots of support from my friends and family, that I am "blessed". My reply is always the same: If I am blessed, why do I have cancer in the first place?
So, who among you has lost faith in god? Gained faith in god? Has your faith or lack of faith remained exactly the same?
A lot of my family and friends tell me they are praying for me. I welcome their prayers as a gesture of good will on their behalf, but I most certainly do not pray. In fact, since I was admitted into the hospital and diagnosed, I have not even felt compelled to, as some call it, "find god". Simply because I have cancer does not mean I can suspend my disbelief about men rising from the dead and virgins bearing children. I appreciate what religion can do for some people, and I appreciate it's notion of altruism but I just cannot bring myself to accept that a loving god would ever let his own creations be afflicted with something as awful as cancer.