So...my husband finished his 30 radiation treatments/42 days of chemo on Monday of this week. Don't get me wrong, we are super excited and over joyed that this phase of treatment is over with. But it's just that, a phase, and while this one was supriseing easy all things considered, what about what comes next? And perhaps most scary, what if it didn't work? We have our 1st post treatment MRI scheduled for 4/17/12 back at Duke University where he had his surgery, but I feel like the next 2 weeks are going to either drag by or go by too fast...I don't want to see the results unless it's only good news. And then, we either have to start a year of chemo & hope that it works where it hasn't before. Or if we get the results we want on this MRI, we have to start chemo and hope it doesn't knock him on his ass for the next 12 months.
I thought that being done with this initial phase we'd be all "hell yeah, suck it cancer" But I think I'm more scared & apprehensive now that we're just sitting ducks than I was when we were actively fighting cancer- taking chemo pills every day & going in the microwave (what he affectionately calls the radiation machine.)