My awesome wife of 21 years was recently diagnosed with stage 4 vaginal cancer, I'm going crazy!!!!!
so many years of her complaining to doctors and no one the wiser, now 10 years later we find out its cancer.
She is 37 years old, mother of 3, a perfect woman and for this to happen to her, not cool at all.
She is in her 3rd week of treatment and she is suffering so much, I feel so useless, I try my best to make her comfortable but nothing really helps, I try to keep her distracted as best as possible but a very hard thing to do with no one showing love, support or interest.
None of her family members have acted in accordance with the norm of things, no one has visit except 1 brother, the mom called because she needed a doctors note but yet have yet to take her daughter to chemo or rad, and to top it all our kids know she is I'll but don't know its cancer
its just her & I against the world, I prey every day she is not taken from me, I don't know what to do anymore, to keep her positive, to keep her going.
Traveling to & from treatment has been a situation by itself, we use mass transit and during rush hour no one has courtesy or manners, my wife could hardly stand and no one gives up a seat so I been using a milk crate for my wife to sit on, this upcoming week things should be better for I did something very stupid but I felt I had to, over the weekend I went to a e.r. room hanged out and in the first opportunity I borrowed a wheel chair, I feel so mess up but my wife needs it to get to nyu.
now I see peoples true colors as they say, I never realized how alone a person could feel.
I completely cut myself off from work, I'm here for her 24hrs and no one even calls her or visits, I just want to call all of them and send them to hell.
I been her punching bag, I just prey she dont end up hating me for um the one here day & night's making sure she eats etc, she screams at me sometimes cause she wants to sleep, I can't blame
her, sleep means no pain or discomfort but she has to eat.
so I'm so angry with the doctors who miss this, oooooohhh how I wish we could have private conversations with those doctors, oooooohhh how I wish.
I really don't know what the future holds, all I know is I'm not OK and i don't know what else to do.
not fair she has to go through this alone, not fair the only good person in my life is in pain and suffering.
I'm feeling mentally tired & borderline ready to curse people out and start dropping F.u's with rapid fire....