It has been so long since I have posted anything on here. There has been so much going on recently, so I figured that it was time to get on here and let some thoughts out.
I have been doing my maintenance chemotherapy, which started off really rough, so my doctor stopped my oral chemo that I was taking on top of my I.V. chemo. So that has helped for the time being. I am also scheduled for surgery on the 27th. I went in for a routine women's wellness exam and my pap results came back abnormal. Then I was told that it was a high abnormal. They ended up sending out 3 biopsies that came back grade 3 severe dysplasia, and right below being diagnosed as cancer (which to me, is close enough to consider it cancer). They will be doing a procedure called a "cone biopsy" and will remove the inter portion of my cervix and send it out to ensure there are good margins.
Has anyone else had this type of surgery or this type of experience? I can't lie and say that it has been easy dealing with another diagnosis dealing with cancer. I always knew a secondary malignancy was possible, just didn't think it would be this soon and during treatment. My oncologist seemed to down play the news and said it happens all the time and to a lot of leukemia patients. I went through a very dark week where I was just so emotional and broken. I got back up on my feet and then have been dealing with feelings of anger. I can't seem to make these feelings go away. I am being positive about the results, because I know that in the end, God has a plan and the results are already preplanned. I can't do anything about that. I just dislike the fact that I have to have surgery and cancer is going to take something else from me. It hurts. I am also scared of the recovery process after the procedure. I hope it isn't too bad.
Anyway, if anyone is familiar with anything I have mentioned, please let me know. It would be nice to know that I am not alone and have someone who is familiar with it to talk to.
Thanks for reading!--Lindsay